life in general...

ok so i guess it hasnt really sunk in yet that allie is really movin! well it didnt sink in till this weekend and when i read her latest post. i still cant believe it...im gonna miss her soo much. well gettin off of al the negative, i spent my weekend with kasey! we went to her lakehouse =] oooh man....we were rebels hahah. we went 4 wheelin adn swimmin the whoel weekend. we went back to her house and i went o church with them on sunday night. i met this guy named daniel. he is really nice adn sweet. hes 17 too. lol. we talked for 3 hours today =]. hes a big christian too and thats a major thing for me! ok well then today is also nates birthday. nate i the guy that im in love with....still. we talked for 5 months bt something happened so we are over =[. this sounds realy bad but i cant go on without him! i need him everyday no matter what! i love him. i have never need anyone in my life like i do with him. idk how to explain it. well idk its hard to understand if u dont know the whoel story. back to allie though! yall we are talin bout my best friend leavin for ever! do u know how depressin adn sad this is! im so...there is no word to explain how i feel. i mean i guess others are just like o ok whatever theyr movin but im so close to her adn this family that is really adn extra hard on me. i dont wanna believe that they r really goin though. i mean i know that i have to except it sometime soon but i just dont want to! my regret adn fear is that the day that they have to leave im gonna be sad adn mad atmyself for not spendin enough time with her! i only have a limited tiem with her now....and shes really busy! well im gonna try to hang out with her all this weekend adn next weekend and up til they have to leave. im gonna take lots of pics too! well yeah i guess its gettin really late so yeah im goin to bed. night

now what?

ok so as most of u know, allie, my best friend is moving back to PA inlike a month =[. its really hard seeing her go, specially now when i need her the most! it jus seems like God is against me now! ugh so im on teh varsity softabll team but i havent been able to play a game yet because i sprainged my ankle right before our games started! i was gonna start too! =[. and now im dealing with more difficult things adn peer pressure. allie has always kept me inline and alwasy made me think bout the stuff i was gonna do before i did them. now with her gone idk if i can hold up to my Christian name! i know that sounds horrible and im tryin to be a better follower of God but right now its very difficult for me to do that. maybe im not tryin it hard enough or mybe i jus dont wanna change intirely but watever it is i know that im strugglin with it! on top of that im in love with a guy that i know i shouldnt be. im too emotionally attached and i really do love him. i know that love is a strong word jus like hate but i dont say it jus to say it...i really do mean it! ugh life is so complicated! i need ur prayers and help and guidence! i dont want this to sound like im selfish or anything but this is jus how i feel. more then ever do i need God'e help right now! well jus please remember to keep me in ur prayers...thanks =]

Alone

wow, i havent written on ly blog in forever. anyways. im alone. i have no friends, my faimly is always mad at me and even wen i hang out with the little friends i do have i still feel alone. i thought that allie was my best friend but i guess not, and if we were then we rnt now! i dotn kno what do do anymore. i feel so emo rite now rittin this but whatever. think what u wnat i dont care! i hate my life and im sick of my mom always yellin at me! i can twait till i turn 18 cuz then im gone...LONG GONE!!!!

Boating

k, so my cuzn gannon came in town yesturday and today we went with our uncle on his boat. my aunt ann, uncle brett, aunt laurie, gannon, angela and her bf arun went too. we went tubing and only flipped once...thats really good for me. hahaha. my cuzn agela is tarified of birds but nobody knew how much so we started to feed them and after we were done they started to surround her. she screamed so loud, i though she was gonna die. i felt bad afterwords but it was really funny. while we were there we ran into my uncle brett's drunk neighbor...man was he out of it, AGAIN. but thats no surrprise you met em. well thats my day...actually thats probably gonna be my summer, i am so bored. well yall please call me!!! allie i miss u, so message me or IM me or watever. hope ur havin fun...i have lods to tell u! cant wait to see u! ily <3

Amazing!

watch this video of this girl make an amazing catch. it is truely remarkable!

Daddy...

well yall are gonna think that im wierd but this post is for my dad. Daddy...if ur watcing over me and if you can hear me i jus wanted you to kno that i love you and goodbye. i never got to tell you either of them because you were in the hospitle and by the time that i cud see you and tell u, it was alrady too late. i miss you and i honostly dont kno y God wanted you to leave us. im so sorry that i never took it seriously but to be honost, i never really let it in. i jus now realize that you arent coming back and that i wont see you till i die. it has been almost 9 years sine you died but it still feels like yesturday wen i was waitin for you to come home. i hope youre proud of me adn proud of the way that your little girl grew up. i wish you are her to see me play all of my favorite sport, help raise me and my sisters. i wish you are her to see alana cuz she was born 6 months after you died. i put your favorite Bible verse on top of my blog adn me adn momma are gonna go bak to crossroads (visit i mean). well rest in peace. i love you! <3
-ur little girl, Chelsea

Report Card & SAT Results

k, so i jus got bak my report card and s.a.t. testin results yesturday n i did really well. i got all a's except for i b+ on my reprot card (final grades), n i got all 8 high school scroing, 5 PHS scoring, and 1 middle school scorin on my SAT's. i dont kno if thats good enough for stanton but i sure hope it is. o, n i jus got my scheldule too. i have al honors classes! i have 2 classes with my best friend mark. we had no classes together in teh past 3 years (like since 5th grade). it wud be really nice to hang out with hi agian cuz we havent really had anytime to hangout since we were in different classes. well cross your fingers that i get into stanton, i'll kno if i do this oct. keep em' crossed! <3

If You're Readin This...

k, u kno wat. i dont care anymore! i'm done! if u jus wanna through away all of our memories like that, then thats fine with me cuz thats ur problem not mine! im not tlkin bout us datin...im jus tlkin bout us bein friends. i mean, jus stop wat ur doin and think bout all of our memories as friends. like the first time we met, or the time we tlk on the fone for 5 hours wen miranda was over at my house. jus little things like that. r u willin to let all that go n not be friends with me? honestly, tell me the truth. cuz i kno that u cn trust me...if u cudnt then i cud have gne n told everyone wat we tlk bout wen we were together or wat ur secret was. jus think bout it, for me atleast, before u really make up ur mind. :( watever u choose ill respect that n if u never wanna tlk to me then i guess this is it. jus plz think bout it!!!

Gone!!! :(

omygosh, carly adn ben are really moving. i kno that they havnt left yet but it feels like they have. im gonna miss them so much!!! i really don twant them to go and i kno that this sounds really selfish but i jus with that ben found a good job here so that they can stay. ill put more up when they really leave. i jus wish that that day never comes. ttyl

Camping and a Birthday

k, so i went campin this weekend with my friends lauren and her family. it was so much fun!!! except i got so sun burned n i am, as lauren called me, burned chiken...lol. so im the burned chiken n she's the lobster! besides that it was so much fun! we went swimmin everyday, played volleyball, and dominated in dodgeball. it was her parents aniversary today so it was kool to see them exchange gift...i havent seen that in like 9 years, yall who kno me kno y. well it's also my mamma's birthday today,so happy b-day mamma. well thats it so ill tlk to yall later.